These past few months were really hard on me.
It seems I lost my sense of direction. All I could do was close my eyes as I spiral down the never ending rabbit hole. Or was it a gopher hole? The hard part was that I was enjoying the fall. It's as if it was natural to feel that way. The minute an opportunity to get up came, I'd kick it in the ass, jump down and let gravity have its way with me.
Well, it ends today.
Today is the beginning of the rest of my life... I hope.
I started Last Friday by watching the following films; This is Spinal Tap, Seven, Fight Club, Trainspotting, Pulp Fiction, and Boogie Nights. That got me back on the up and up a bit. In between watching those films, I got really really sick. I didn't go to work. I watched FOX News. I didn't go out. I didn't talk to anyone. I basically bummed out during the weekend.
Oh yeah. I also readjusted my priorities in life. Nothing beats facing a new day with adjusted priorities. It's like reading a slew of type font 24 Deepak Chopra mantras while having a bowl of cheerios and a glass of caffeinated orange juice for breakfast. It's just riveting, in a quiet sense of the word. I would have used the word brainwash but that just reeks of negativity, don't you think?
Oh and before I forget, I would like to thank the pharma industry for the invention of Nyquil which shepherd me thru the valley of despair and hopelessness. Not too mention the chills, shakes, coughs, etc. etc. Don't forget, I mentioned that I was also sick. I meant, really really sick.
Where was I? Oh yeah, fixing up my life...
So, what's ahead of me now? I don't know. And I am excited that I don't know. I have discarded my fears, worries, and hang ups. I am two steps shy of becoming one of those religious liberal fanatics praising life and whoever their god may be while castigating non believers into the deepest bowels of their image of hell.
Of course, I don't get religious in the way of my beliefs. It's just too constricting. Nyquil is way more soothing and nurturing. Trust me. It may cause drowsiness and sleepiness so avoid heavy machinery, alcohol, and eating with chopsticks.
